So, I think it's pretty obvious that God definitely is good! But usually we emphasize it when good things happen. Well, the reason I haven't posted in a whole while is because I have been orientating at my new job. Yes, I finally found another job with full time hours and really good pay. It's a bit of a drive from where I live now, but once I move, if I actually do, it will be shaved down to a twenty minute drive. Plus, wherever I may move in TN, they have facilities everywhere, so I could easily transfer if ever necessary. It is another nursing facility but I will be working the skilled unit so, I'll be able to work my skills a little more. Don't get me wrong, I love my little patients at the other facility. And I'm not totally leaving them, but as I said in an earlier post, sometimes it's time to move on. So, now that time has come. I can't bite the hand that fed me so to speak. I got IV certified at the other facility so it would be dirty to totally leave a week after they paid for that course for me. I most likely won't be working much less than I do now there, because I'm a workaholic.
Now, at this point I want to thank my two besties, Tricia and JL. They sat in just as much anticipation as I did and prayed heavily for me though this, and it worked out wonderfully. No one truly understands the power of prayer, until they do it. In the few months that JL and I have been friends he has been a true inspiration. He has taught me, whether he knows it or not, that I can be just as funny and silly without having a potty mouth. I can flirt and have fun without everything turning sexual. He and I finally met last week. And although it was a brief encounter, and I'm still checking my car for bugs (joke, he's an Orkin man.), I enjoyed it. It was very nice. And even though I had preferred my kids not be with us the first time, they were. And seemed to like him pretty well. That for sure doesn't mean that's how it's always going to work because I'd like to get to know him better before the kids get tied in. That includes his little punkin, even though he's only 5 months old. I did it right once before. And even though J and I both have moved on, he will always be a model and a reminder. I will always model my future relationships with men from my relationship with him. The relationship itself may not have worked, but the method did. Of course, accommodating for an obviously different personality.
The last couple of weeks have been absolutely amazing. I inserted God back into my life, and have began to surround myself with like-minded Christians. Anyone who has told you that God isn't real, or God doesn't answer prayer, please don't listen to them. God does things in HIS time. Not ours. It took me so long to finally grasp that concept again. I was so hard on myself and so down that I honestly couldn't see how God could pull me out. But I learned that once I truly just let go and let God do His thing, things finally fell into place. Sometimes when we feel like we are as weak as we could possibly be, we have to stop and think, as silly as it may seem, that maybe we are being too strong. We can't do things on our own. We can't face the world by ourselves. That's why we have to "Let go and let God." He knows what's best for us.
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