The last couple of days have been much better than the last 2 weeks. I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm obviously still a little hurt, but I'm getting there. I'm finding faith again. I smiled really big today. The first time in 2 weeks. I've joked, and laughed, and even been able to do a little flirting. No, there's not already someone new. But, it's nice to know I just may still have it! I am simply having fun right now. I could be being played like crazy, but right now, I don't care. As I said in my last post, J will always have a piece of my heart. I fell in love with him. I've even had a few people give me their theories on what they think happened with him. And, that's ok. I agree with the possibilities of all of them. But I'm not going to dwell on them. I simply can't. I have to do what I can to be happy. And as he told me, I deserve to be happy.
I'm excited about getting IV certified next month. I'm excited about getting ready to move in the next few months. I have so many things to be excited about, I let my pain and sadness overshadow every bit of it. I don't know what is going to happen, I don't even want to try to predict what is going to happen. I am just breathing and going with the flow...What I should have done 2 weeks ago.
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